06 June 2018

ReBranding My Blog & Growing As A Person

Welcome back, little birdies!

I hope you're doing well today. Recently. I've been having a little bit of a think of why I haven't been into my blog as much as I used  to be - besides the obvious reasons of classes and work - and this is what I've come up with.

One major reason is the layout of my blog. It just doesn't inspire me anymore and I'm looking for something a little more sophisticated and crisp. I am in the works of giving my blog layout and maybe even the site I use, a major upgrade.

Another reason would be the name of my blog. It's a little bit of a bittersweet moment thinking about it but I don't feel like it truly fits anymore. When I first made my blog I made the mistake of giving it a "username" title. It was Jay18xoxox (or something like that). Jay being for my name, 18 because that was how old I was when I was first creating it (mind you, that was 7 years ago). I never posted back then when I first created it, then I redid the layout years later and actually started to post. A little while after that I decided to change the name to Blissful Beauty Bird. A name I will forever hold dear to my heart. I have an older post on why I chose that for my blog and at the time, it fit perfectly.

I started my blog in hopes of being a "beauty blog". I wanted to share my passion for products I was loving just as I've seen in previous blogs and even YouTube channels. Although, I still love beauty products and I am planning on sharing the occasional, it's not what I'm passionate about anymore. It's not what I crave to write about. The year 2017 had a major impact on who I am as a person and I realized myself starting to grow and really trying to "find myself"? I use the term "find myself" loosely as I did write posts back in November of Finding Myself and how I was on the quest of doing so but that year really helped me learn things about myself, whether big or small.

When it comes to interests, I've noticed myself moving away from beauty being the majority, to wanting to talk about lifestyle things - what's happening in my life, travel, what has been on my mind, what books I want to read, etc. I've noticed it's what I've been drawn to reading more of as well.

It did make me sad to think about knowing I wanted to move on from my little beauty world of Blissful Beauty Bird but I think it's the right thing for me to do to stay authentic to who I am as a person. People grow and change and it should be embraced. I am now 25 years old and I'm not the same person I was when I was 18, or 21, or even last year and that's okay.

The changes shown on my blog will take a little while as I want to make sure the name, layout and what I put out is exactly what I'd want. I will still be posting before the changes happen as I'm already in process of writing a post about travel and a post involving beauty products from a subscription box I was given for my birthday in April.

I hope you continue on this journey with me and are looking forward as much as I am of what's next for me and my little space on the internet.

Thanks for reading,


26 March 2018

Shaking off the "Lazy" Label

Welcome back!

If you've read my post Back to the Grind - College Edition , you would know I just recently started my classes again after a very long "semester off". Let me start off by saying about how much I am loving it and I'm so thankful to be back in the swing of things. Actually, it's probably better than being back in the swing of things, I'm beyond motivated and happy with my decision, I've been working really hard to try and do well in my classes to achieve my goals.

(Source: StockSnap )

One thing people immediately do when I tell them I've started my classes again and am taking three this semester is look at me a bit worried and say, "And you're working?". Yes, I am taking three classes that have rather extensive reading to them, while I'm working. I never really saw this as a big deal. I figured at least it wasn't five classes and working. Once I started my classes I realized that unless I'm keeping up with everything, it'll be easy to fall behind. The time that I'm not in class or working, I need to dedicate to finishing my readings, homework, and essays. I learned quickly that keeping up with things, and using your time wisely helps keep the load off and ensures you're up to date with the class and doing well.

I'm going to back track a little bit and get to the point of this post. While I was growing up and in school, I never really put in my best effort. Not in middle school, high school or the beginning years of college. I was considered "Lazy". As much as I've always hated that term, I look back now and realize I really was. I just didn't want to try. I was content with mediocre work.

I've come a long way since then but I feel myself trying to shake off the "lazy" label. I've gotten to the point of being exhausted some days to prove to others that not only can I achieve what I said I would do but to show that I'm not lazy. I read somewhere - I wish I knew where I read it, as the saying seemed to have stuck with me - that we seem to glorify being exhausted. Becoming so busy and having no "me" time to relax, eat some potato chips and watch Netflix is something that has been correlated with a hard worker. I feel like I was trying to do that this semester but realized the huge fault in it.

I've realized that I'm not lazy at all. It just comes down to the point of what you're motivated in, you'll put the effort in to achieve more. I wasn't trying when I was younger because I wasn't motivated in anything - but now that I am, I'm so ready to achieve my goals. It's all a matter of finding out what you want to do with the rest of your life, or even just smaller goals, and setting up what you need to do to get there - guaranteed you'll want to do your best to achieve it. Those steps don't have to take over your whole day, take some time and watch that new episode on Netflix or read a book or take a nap. Just remember the balance.

I hope this post helps you. Work hard on what you want to achieve and your goals. No matter how you get there, try not to compare your success with someone else's. Keep on keeping on and remember to take a break every once in a while so you don't over do it.


18 February 2018

Back to the Grind - College Edition

Welcome back!

This year seems to be chugging by as we're  a l r e a d y nearing the end of February! Where is the time going?! I've been super busy this past month and so very motivated and I felt it would be a great post to show you guys were I'm at at the moment.

(Source: stocksnap.io)

I'm so thankful to be surrounded by driven, hard working, and motivational people and that's definitely given me a good ole kick in the butt to get back in the game with my classes. I stopped taking classes about two and a half years ago because I didn't know where I wanted to be in life. I didn't know what I wanted to do and to be honest, I just felt like I wouldn't be good at anything.

In the past, I've gotten myself into trying to get into programs and getting into degrees that wasn't something I enjoyed. And because of that, I wasn't motivated to continue. By the time I realized I should do something with my life  that I enjoy instead of just taking anything because it might pay well, I was already taking classes without purpose. Kind of like just going through the motions of college without a plan or an end goal. I decided to take some time off of class and just work but that short time to think turned into almost nearly three years of not taking any classes.

The year 2017 really helped me focus on what I want in life. I want to be able to do something I enjoy and something I'm relatively okay at. So, I decided I wanted to take up an English Major as my degree. Although I'm not totally sure what path exactly I'd like to take with that degree once I get it, I'm in the process of just starting this journey and seeing where it leads me in the end.

Also, please keep in mind that although my posts aren't the most creative and well drafted or informational.. I'm only starting out my classes! I'm hoping the more classes I take and the more years I get into it, it'll also reflect onto my blog. Improving your craft!

I started my classes in the middle of January and it surely has been a rush! I'm more motivated than I've ever been to do well and get to where I would like to be in life. Between classes and working my normal hours, I've realized how much of planning ahead will keep me in control and up to date with all my work. That also includes my blogging! I started off January with only one post for 2018 but blogging is something I love to do and I'm trying to fit it in my schedule to continue to bring out new content while balancing class and work as well.

As I take these classes and continue on my journey of an English Major, I look forward to bettering my blog and my posts while I grow and learn a new passion of mine!

Thanks for all your patience with my posts and thanks for reading!


08 January 2018

2017 Year Review

Welcome back!

This past year has been one of many ups and downs. It's definitely a year that I'm going to remember. There are definitely goals that I've met as well as those that I have fallen short of achieving and that's okay. Looking back at my goals of the start of the year from my post "Cheers to a Good Year", I can take inspiration on looking forward into the new year.

On the top of my list was "Taking Control of My Anxiety". I feel as though I've made great progress when it comes to that. This past year thankfully wasn't as bad with my anxiety - despite it creeping up on me every once in a while. It started to get tough around May and I decided to take the first step into letting out those emotions that I had.  I decided to go to counseling for it. One thing I'm adamant about is not going on medication. Please don't get me wrong, I know medication can really help people and have definitely benefited the lives of people I know personally. I just don't think it was the right choice for me. Regardless, just being able to talk about how I'm feeling when I get panic attacks has absolutely helped me a lot. It's also encouraging when you're letting it out, and feel as though that person understands exactly what you mean. Not like you're mental for thinking the way you do. Counseling has boosted my way of thinking and from it, I've had less anxiety this past year.

(Free Stock Photo Source: Stock Snap)

Globetrotter in the making.

The beginning of the year I said that I wanted this year to be the first of my traveling adventures. That was something I've certainly succeeded on. This past July, I spent a week in England. It was my long awaited goal that I've finally checked off the bucket list. I went for a week and spent most the time in London and about a day and a half in Worcester. I mostly went to meet up with my closest friends. In the process, I met up with my best blogging friend Katie from K.F. Pestell. She had taken the train to London to meet up with me and we spent the day around the city. I'm just going to quickly add, she's amazing. It was like we were just catching up from seeing each other the week before, not meeting for the first time. I loved it and I can't wait to hang out with her again in the future! I then spent time with my other friends and we spent three days at the Hyper Japan Festival down in Wapping before heading up to Worcester. One thing I love about the country is how much history there is. I've always been really interested in the English history, so to walk about the place and learn just a bit more was the best. I'm really glad I was able to face some fears and start my wanderlust journey.

 Code Word: Blogger

One goal I've certainly not kept up with was blogging. This past year wasn't my best with blogging but I'm hoping to change that for the new year. I'm going to ease myself back into the blogging game again and even try to be more social on my twitter to join chats with my fellow bloggers. One thing I'll be weary of is sticking to a schedule. I know that's probably the best thing you can do with your blog but I don't want to stress out and put out posts that I don't love.

I spoke in my "Cheers to a Good Year" post about wanting to finally meet up with some of my best time blogging friends and this summer I was actually able to meet two out of the three of them! As I said before, (and to be honest, I won't ever get tired of saying it!) I met up with my love Katie in London. When I got back home, I was also lucky enough to meet up with Jen from Beauty Life Mom. She and I live a couple states away from each other but she and her family was traveling up through southern New England and was passing by my state before they headed home so I was so excited when we were able to make plans to have lunch before their long journey home! Jen is another person that it felt like we were just catching up instead of meeting for the first time. And, might I add, she is hilarious. Hopefully this time I can take the trip down and hang out with her more.
I may not have been able to meet up with Srna this year but because of her beautiful wedding, she was able to move from being 6 hour difference away in Brussels, Belgium to being 1 hour time difference in the SAME COUNTRY! Unfortunately, it's not like I can drive over her place and have a chat but we do have our FaceTime dates that definitely help. I know we'll meet up soon enough and I literally can't wait.

I feel as though 2017 was a good year over all and definitely the year of many new things. I feel it was a pivotal year that's helped open my eyes to many things. It certainly has had it's fair share of ups and downs but it might be one for the books that I will never forget.

2017 has definitely shaped how I'd like to be in 2018.
So to that, I say,
Cheers to a New Year!


04 December 2017

Quest To Finding Myself: Toxicity of Too Much Social Media

My first post back since August was talking about how much I've lost who I am. I've felt like I'm so far gone from who I thought I was. Constantly comparing myself to others and really just trying to fit in with the fold. Whoever they are. I'm trying to take some major steps back to be able to chip away at the facade of trying to be like others and discovering who's really underneath.

First tiny step I've taken was to try and wean myself off of social media, much like a baby growing accustom to solid food after having nothing but their mothers milk. Quite the metaphor but you get my point. As much fun as social media is, it's also very toxic if you let it take over your life. Which is definitely what I did. Now, I understand how it might be important especially in the blogging world. Constantly keeping engaged and current is crucial for maintaining an up to date blog with your audience. I would know because I do just the opposite. But putting that aside, and not thinking about social media helping your hobby or work, the majority of us are on it from the moment we wake up to the minute we go to bed.

You might ask, "What does social media have to do with finding yourself?" Great question. You ask a lot of great questions. (Let's see if my friends caught on to that one.) Daily, I'd go between Facebook, twitter, Instagram,  and Snap Chat and then just circle those for hours on end. Not only is that a waste of time that you could be enjoying the sunshine, fresh air, a walk around the park, or quality time with family and friends but I feel it's a bit harmful to your self confidence as well. I know that was a huge leap from treading the countryside to how one thinks of one self but it's true. At least in my case. I'm always comparing myself to the other girls I see on Instagram - how they look, act, talents, etc. The successful bloggers on twitter and how I wish my blog was like theirs or even people I know personally and what they might have achieved in life.

With all that said, I decided to start slow and log off my Facebook for a few days. I think I'm a good five days strong as I'm writing this (Update: since I take so long to upload my posts, I've officially been off for nearly 2 weeks). I know Facebook is just one app out of many and I still have been using my other social media but I'm trying to start slow. For a person who checks their social media almost every 5 minutes, cold turkey would set me up for failure.

By no means am I saying you have to shut off any and all social media you have or that social media will make you insecure with yourself. I'm just writing out the steps I'm taking to have a better mindset about myself, wholesome living and finding myself again. This does not mean I'll delete all my social media and throw out my phone. Everything in moderation. I'm just hoping by shutting off my social media every now and then will just help me focus on me, instead of what everyone else is doing.

As I continue to lessen my time on social media, I'll be sure to keep you updated on how that's working and what I'm doing to better myself in placement of just scrolling the depths of the internet for hours on end.

Thanks for tuning in.


22 November 2017

Finding Myself Again

Prologue: I went searching for free stock photos I could use for this post when I came across this one. It's funny because the meaning meant a lot more to me than just slowing down the car in rural neighborhood. The ease and serenity of the photo made me think of my body and mind saying "Thank you for slowing down". Remembering to take time for you in a non-stop world is important.

It's only been a few months since my last "Where have I been?" post. I make a lot of excuses on why I haven't been posting or even engaging on social media like I would like too. I think of what's been keeping my hands occupied enough where I "don't have the time to blog". Whether it be work, my trip that I spent months preparing for, church, hanging out with friends ect. I now realize that it's not what I feel have been occupying my hands that are keeping me away from blogging but what's been occupying my mind. It comes down to the simple fact that I'm keeping myself away from blogging because I haven't wanted to. I don't feel like it's something that should be forced either.

I noticed that I don't like to get too personal on my blog because I'm afraid of being vulnerable. I know I've mentioned my anxiety before and I know that it's quite common and a lot of people go through it. I have been taking counseling for my anxiety and depression for the past several months. And with my counseling, one thing that I've discovered is about how much I've lost myself.

I've noticed I've put a huge pressure on myself to be just like everyone else. To make my blog seem like those of people who we feel are the "perfect blogger" with the "perfect life". To only speak about certain subjects because people like reading them from others but not necessarily putting out everything I feel. Worried that something I put out might be looked at as controversial so keeping quiet on things that I strongly stand behind. I've been so enamored with what everyone else is doing and trying to be like everyone else and liking what they're liking - I've completely lost who I am, what I enjoy, and my own outlook on life. Constantly comparing myself to others and trying to do what others like to please them. Whether that be in the blogging community or in my daily life.

As I'm typing this, trying to figure out traits, mannerisms, things that make up who I am - are they even me at all?

I can even feel me doing it as we speak. The nagging feeling in the back of my mind that as I type this, I'm just feeling like I'm not very good with my words and my posts aren't creative literature that captures people into wanting to read more.. so why am I still typing? And if you're reading this until now, you're probably just as confused as I am on what I'm blubbering about. There really isn't rhyme or reason to this post. I'm just typing as I go along.

I'll try my best to work through this while keeping this blog up to date. Maybe starting my own series of posts just me trying to journey through life. I'd like to try and be more mindful of things instead of just sitting on social media. I feel like that's a good chunk of why I'm feeling like I do. But that's a story for another post.

I still want to post about the beauty items I love because at the very least, I know that's something I do enjoy. I just have to have fun with it and not compare those beauty posts to the millions of others out in the beauty community.

Here's to my journey on finding myself again..


23 August 2017

Box Swap w/ K.F.Pestell

Welcome back, little birdies!

In the beginning of the year, my bestest blogging friend Katie from K.F. Pestell and I agreed to do a little box swap with each other. We've known each other and our blogs for a little over a year now and clicked right away. As you all know, I'm on the East Coast America (for now ;) ) and she's across the pond over in England so we figured it'd be nice to send a little each other little bits and bobs that was harder for the other to get a hold of.

She had a little bit of a hard time sending it off to me through the post office so we decided we could just wait until we met up in London to give it to me. We finally met this past July and it was the greatest thing ever! Unfortunately, because the post office wouldn't let her send the box, and she can't travel with a huge box and lug it around all day, she had to take the contents out of the box and put it in a bag. She did also buy me one of those cute London bags with a double decker on it to make up for not being in the box haha. I loved it either way. Here's what was in the box! She wrapped everything up so lovely. I don't have a picture but I did do a video on snapchat if you want to see it!

First, I'll start with a request of little goodies from Rosie for Autograph. After I saw Alys' post over at Alys George of the two lipsticks she got from the brand and I fell in love. We don't have M&S over in the States and when I tried to order online, they didn't have it available to send to the States so I thought that request would be nice. And Katie being the little angel she is, added some to my box! I got Rose Lace and Silk Rose lipsticks. Both absolutely beautiful shades - they're perfect - one for during the day and one for night. Can I just add that the rose gold packaging is blog photo worthy. She also added a liquid liner from Rosie's collection because she knows how much I love my liners. I've not had much luck with felt tip liners but this one works great! Definitely impressed.

Next up, I opened two Tanya Burr lip products. I've never had any Tanya Burr products before so I was excited to receive these. Katie bought me a bubble gum pink matte lip in the color Puppy Paws and a nude lip gloss in the shade Lunch Date. She's so silly. She told me she didn't notice that Lunch Date was a gloss instead of matte and was hoping I'd still like it. I absolutely love Lunch Date. I can put it on top of any lipstick for that extra bit of color and shine. No need to worry. :)

Before I opened up my goodies, I spent a day with Katie around London (You can read about how we met HERE ). Funny enough, we were talking about Bourjois and how we don't have that brand here in the U.S. and I saw it when I went into the stores over there. When I got back to the hotel and opened up my gifts, I saw that she added Bourjois Shiny Finish Lip Color in the shade Laque. It's a gorgeous berry color. I think it'll be perfect for Autumn coming up soon. To match, she added a Barry M Nail Varnish in Fuchsia Generation. I love it!!

I then opened up the Soap & Glory Super Cat Skinny Liner. I've heard amazing things about this liner and so far its been working out well with me. The felt tip is a bit longer than I'm used to from other felt tip liners. Actually, I feel Rosie for Autograph's liner is quite similar to this one. I'm already sure that I'll be repurchasing this once it's run out.

Katie then added a No. 7 Sea Salt & Lavender Soft & Soothing Aroma candle. I was really excited to receive this because it smells SO good! It's definitely one of those candles you turn on before bed at night to make the room comfy and relaxing just in time to sleep. I feel like it's a bit of a pamper product. Once I do my at home spa night routine I can have this on in the back while I cuddle into my bed with the fairy lights on to get ready for a great nights sleep.

Being the little investigator that she is, she knew from one of my posts that I love to sketch. I used to do it all the time and spend hours on perfecting a sketch. So my lovely Katie bought me a new sketch pad and art pencils to get back in my creative side with art. How thoughtful!?!? I'm working on something at the moment I'm hoping it turns out the way I'd like so I can send it over to her. 😚

These last two items that I opened were by far my favorite. Leaving the best for last per say. These mean so much to me because she put her time and effort and looooooove into them. The first is a bracelet she made me that has my name on it with earthy toned colors because those are my favorite type of tones and she figured that I never had my name on a key ring because my actual name is more unique. How cute?! (I won't be uploading a photo because it has my name on it. But trust me -  it's beautiful)  She also FELTED ME A SPARROW. Can you imagine the time and probably stress it takes to FELT A SPARROW!? I just can't. She knows Sparrows are my favorite animal and for her to do that for me especially during her time in uni and studying for exams. That just makes me so over the moon and appreciate her as my best friend so much. I couldn't have been so honored and blessed to have met her.

Everything I received was so well thought out and let's be real - I was very spoilt! I'm so thankful to have her in my life. I miss her so much already and can't believe it's already been a month since I've seen her! Hopefully that'll change within the next year and I'll be able to see her more often <3 I HIGHLY recommend giving her blog a follow. You can find her at K.F. Pestell . Her blog is very mindful and wholesome. It's definitely worth the read.

So to my Katie bear, I thank you SO much for the thoughtful contents in my little goodie bag and I'm even more thankful for the chance to be able to hang out with you. It was such an amazing day that (in my humble opinion) went by WAY too fast. I can't wait to see you again soon! Love you, girl!